Sunday, October 24, 2010

parties,a hospital bed, and baby names names

so its been a while. and i apologise
I've spent the last few days in a hospital bed because i collapsed at work ... thankfully it was right before my boss walked in the door apparently but i still just straight up passed out. apparently i have gestational diabetes, i really thought only obese chicks get that but i suppose i was wrong. it sucks i have to check my blood sugar levels like 5 times a day, i hate the fucking needle. it hurts.

but thank goodness. baby is doing great.
speaking of... we narrowed down names to 3 girl names and 2 boy names
Gia Marie Bryan
Thea  Ashwynn(Ash-win) Bryan
Gemma-Kate Bryan (no middle name )
Travis Michael Bryan
Kade Jacob Bryan
what do you girls think? Thea was his choice and  we'll probably go with that because its growing on me.

ok so as always i have drama to tell you girls and don't think  today is any different
so Saturday was my boyfriends little cousins 10th birthday party, he begged us to come because he looks up to my boyfriend so much. because my bf is a Jehovah's witness (or claims he is but cant be too religious since hes got a kid on the way and were not married) he didn't want to go to that poor child's party. i literally had to pick out an outfit, iron it for him, brush his hair for him, sit there and watch him shave, and put on his shoes just to get him out the door. then i felt bad we didn't have anything to give Stephen for his birthday so i went to the dollar store and bought him 10$ worth of stuff (with my last ten dollars might i add) so we get to  the party and it hasn't started yet, in fact they were still getting ready so i took it upon my self to help out. i hung up banners, filled the pinata, helped decorate the cake, gave the kids baths, picked out there outfits for the party, dressed the 3 younger ones. did the little girls hair,and made sure all of them were occupied while we were waiting for people to show up. mean while by boyfriend is sitting on the couch downing beers like they're nothing, starring mindlessly in to space. he must have already had 7 or 8 by the time the actually party started. then  when the party started, it was in the back yard so he moved himself to a chair in the back yard and  drank more beer, and stared mindlessly in to space while i was running around trying to keep all the kids  in the back yard, pouring drinks, handing out margaritas to the adults, trying to figure out who the screaming kid of the moment belonged to making sure no one was eating things out of the dirt and then when the food was ready i was handing out hamburgers and hot dogs. my boyfriend wouldn't even pay attention to his "little buddy" Stephen. all because he "doesn't believe in birthdays" i was pissed.
so his momma shows up to fix her self a plate and then leave and  as shes leaving  he  grabs me like " I'm leaving with my mom you coming?" i was like are you out of your fucking mind dude? i have to play baby sitter and care taker because at this point I'm the only sober adult left. but i wont be late you'll be home right?  he  goes " i don't know" and  gets in the car. i got even more pissed.
so as the party winded down, i handed out cake, wiped faces clean, handed out goodie bags and brought all the kids to whom the belonged to.  then the party was over, and his cousin brought me home
now remember, that was HIS family.

i get back to his house and  his mom is walking out the front door with my stuff in her hand.. im like where is he? and she goes "he just went off with AJ not too long ago and he packed your stuff and told me to give it to you. you can stay and wait for him to come home if you want" at this point i was livid... i wanted to strangle him or slit his throat or something.
so im sitting on my boyfriends bed waiting, waiting, waiting 2 hours have gone by, waiting waiting waiting, 4 hours waiting waiting waiting 5 hours... i finally get my almost dead cellphone and spend 3 hours trying to get in touch with him. by this time I'm having an anxiety attack and balling my eyes out. i haven't seen or heard from him since he stormed out of the party. ii finally went to bed with molly (hhis dog and my "step daughter") expecting him to be there when i wake up at least. i woke up at 9... still no boyfriend...went back to sleep... woke up at 11... still no boyfriend.....went back to sleep... woke up at 1..... still no boyfriend and i couldn't fall back a sleep so ii stared calling again. NO ONE ANSWERS MY TEXTS OR CALLS WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?
finally someone answered my call and it was AJ's brother in law. i got on the phone with my boyfriend and i was like "uhm wtf was this fucking stunt? what if i went in to labor? what if i tripped and  fell and broke my neck? why the fuck would you go out with your fucking boyfriend and not even fucking wait for me to get home? like i dont fucking care  that  you went out  but  i stay over here on the weekends  to spend  time with you not with your dogs,cats,chickens,ducks, and mother while your out getting high and drunk with your fucking boyfriend are you going to fuckin come home before i have to leave or are you not even going to say bye to me" im pretty sure i said all that in one breath too. his responce?  i dont know babe we just got back from the store and were having a cook out" are you kidding me?  you dont  tell you pregnant girlfriend  whos eating everything in sight something like that! so i jsut hung up when he was done

he called me back (because he felt bad i have no doubt) and was like " how long are you going to be at the  house?" i was like " i dont fucking  know i was about to call devon to come get me but if youre going to grace me with your presence then i might wait for you" he told me he was on my way and i hung up again with out saying anything

he gets  home and  hes stoned off his ass AJ is drunk off his and i wanted to yell at both of them but i was emotionally exausted so i let it go. i got no appoligy for him being out for 28 hours and not even letting me know he was leaving, i got no i missed you baby. i got "you ate all my hotpockets... what the fuck. do you have any ciggarettes i know you do give me one"

is him saying sorry too much to ask? i dont even need the im sorry but an i missed you would be nice you know?

urgh idfk

 Xo-glass-slippers-oX- lol something like that. ive been eating everything in sight lately so  dont worry about me not eating any more <3

too much to try to remember

1- yoga video
2- go to walmart and buy a few avacados, sour cream and cilantro  for my famous guacomole
3- remember to take my prenatal

1 comment:

    I hope you get better sweetie!

    OMG YOUR BOYFRIEND IS AN ARSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    (no offence to you beautiful)

    oooo I love Travis Michael Bryan!!! Thats such a cute name!!! And I still like Gia!! HAHA

    I hope you are well sweetie



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